I am about to end my 30th year. Two days till my birthday. Well one day I suppose. It is 1am. yes my birthday is on Christmas day. Yes is sucks. Moving on.........

So last year was a year of pruning. Don't get me wrong, many great things happened last year but I did learn a few key things about myself. Evidently I am not a great leader. I can lead, I like to lead but I lack a few neccessary skills. It turns out.... I kinda scare people. I know that in order to be a good leader you have to be a servent first. I guess when I thought of the word servent, I thought of waitresses. Well I am a great waitress and hospitality is one of my spiritual gifts. I LOVE to wait on people. That is not servent leadership. I think one of the main things I am lacking is humility. I can be too confident at times and that blinds me to see the strengths in others. Servent leadership I think is more about putting others before you in all things, their wants, their needs, their happeness. So I am going to take a step back and learn what it really means to be a servant leader. Part of that I think, will be keeping my mouth shut more and letting others take the lead. Trusting that other people are perfectly capable of doing what needs to be done. It is not really that I think I can do something better. I just enjoy leading. It is fun. I love the goals and the deadlines and working hard so others can enjoy whatever it is we are working towards. I love working in the background and seeing things come together.  But taking a year off or longer is not going to kill me. I hope it only makes me stronger and better able to serve in God's kingdom. I also hope it means less pruning in the future. I am incrediably greatful that the man God worked through was so very gentle and kind or i am not sure where I would be. Certainly not still in the ministry doing the things I am doing. Pruning is painful but necessary if you want to bloom.....

peace out